try to be happy day

let's talk something happy for a change.

today i went to parco for a summer sale with mom.
a lot of customers made a line before opening hours.yeah,of course we did.we didn't care taking a long time.

my object was jeanasis' denim pants.
i wanted to get it for several weeks,so i hurried to there.
oh,it was there!! is there a reason i don't buy it?

next,y's.
there was crowded(mainly middle-aged women,haha),i pushed past them,reached a cool black jacket at last.it seems to be able to wear in autumn,i think it's so useful.

last,moussy.
soooooo crowded!!! i was barely able to walk! many younger girls were desperately finging something better.the sight was very interesting,funny and aweful:)
i got two tank tops and a t-shirt.those were so reasonable price,i was satisfied with them.

well,the sale makes people(especially women) excited and turn into soldiers.how do men think about it?

anyway,today was happy day.
therefore i cannot stop going shopping.

how is today's me?
see,i can write a normal diary!

no title

Praying for the wave to come now
It must be for the fifteenth time
I've been here for much too long
This is the past that's mine

I want to fly and run till it hurts
Sleep for a while and speak no words
In Australia
I want to fly and run till it hurts
Sleep for a while and speak no words
In Australia
In Australia

Australia/Manic Street Preachers

complicated

i still dwell on it.
well,i'm really stupid.
i don't know why i think about it all day.

i hate myself pretending to be friend.
it's better to say that i cannot stand...but i don't have any courage.goddamn.

the best way is changing my mind.
but i cannot.
if i can so,i ought not to suffer like now.

even now,i'm serching after the way keeping my balance.

please tell me,someone.

what should i do?

nightmare

i cannot sleep well for the last few days.

i go to bed,close my eyes,but my brain refuses absolutely to sleep.
so i brood on my present until falling asleep.it takes a long time.finally i have to eat a sleeping pill.

i think over and over again,but cannot find better answer.

who am i?
what is the best way?
what is the most i want to do?

i've not found the guiding light yet.

nightmare will come again.

calm down

calm down.
calm down.

i just mix up.

i won't be nasty.

i just want to be straightforward.it's true.believe.

but now,you see me!

really such shabby and sly...


i guess...i cannot answer...as usual.
i'm not right.i know.just i'm wrong.

however...
i'm not quite satisfied with the situation.

maybe...don't know my heart.
it's okay,i hope so.

but...i cannot,no,won't understand the makeup of...thought.
what does make of...?

i'm still complicated.