happy accident

i met with a happy accident yesterday and today.

what i can just say is,

i'm happy now.

that's all.

you give me a light.

you give me hope.

your words make my heart warm.

thanks.

thanks,dear.

hate myself

i said again and again about this here.
you might bored with associating my talk,but i cannot help telling about this.

i hate myself.

where?

servility,looks,words,...all!!
i don't like anything of myself.

why am i easily jealous of others(especially success)?

i have to be more liberal.and,i must have a big heart.
that's too tough for me,but i should do.
yes,i know it so much.i know...

still i hate myself.
changing is painful.

tired of everything

i'm so tired.

everything isn't worthy of doing.
everything means nothing to me.
everything is evil.

please give me the guiding light.

a quiet day

today i spent a quiet time(i don't know why).
it's rare,because my feeling is always unstable,the negative thought settles in my head.
anyway,today was nice.that's good.
i hope the day like today will last.
please,god.

rainy day

rain makes me blue.
on a day like today,i tend to think how i'm miserable.

i'm miserable.

the reason reminds me is not only one.
there are so much problems for me.

i'm miserable.

why don't i think positive and do i envy others?

i don't know.

i wish i could disappear from the earth.

on this rainy day,i'm miserable.