boring

i'm bored with my life.

我想不活了。

i'm only jealous of others' life.
i hate such myself.
why do i live?

...
...
...

i dunno.

if i can,i want to live without any stress.
i'm a person easy to feel it,i think.
it's good,but at the same time bad.

well...

now i cannot put together my thoughts.

私は卑しい人間である。

私は卑屈で、嫉妬深く、人間的に何の深みも無い、面白みの無い人間だ。

それどころか、卑屈に徹することもできない。

なんと阿呆なことだろう。

本音を言うことすらできない。

ああ、なんと哀れな人間だろう。

言ってしまえばすっきりするのではないか。

けれど言えない。

作り笑いを浮かべて、うわべだけの言葉を吐く。

i should stop making believe we're friends.

feel good

today i feel good.
it's nice to me,

so,

there are no things what i write.

end.

i'm wrong

i'm wrong.

i know that.

but cannot help insulting her.
of course it's inside of my heart.

i might dislike her.
i'm not sure.i cannot understand myself.

but when i think about her,i can find only bad thing...

i'm wrong.maybe so.

poor girl,what is the best for you?

trust...no

i never trust anyone.

i never trust anyone.

no one understand me is here.

i'm betrayed.

i'm disappointed.

i never thought you could say such inconsiderate words.

you're heartless.

i might have to say goodbye to you.

it seems that i should prepare to leave you.

so,

i never trust anyone.