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long time,no see...

cuz i'm pretty busy these every night.i cannot have the time to write my blog here.writing in english is not still so easy to me.if i want to write,i need much time...

i enjoy my english class as usual.but i always think,i wish i could speak more fluency...i can write not bad,i think,but speaking skill isn't as well as writing...
i have to try harder.huh,it's not easy way to master...

from here,my real soliloquy.

you really trust me?
and,i can trust you?
but i'm still scared of trusting other people.
i don't have the confidence...

that's it!!!

THAT'S IT!!!

you should zip up your lip.

why do you ask me silly questions everytime? i've already told about it,right?

but you don't seem to understand my words and topics.

i dare say to you,

ARE YOU A FOOL?

i think,

YOU ARE A FOOL.

watch around you,and you will understand,how fool you are.

enough of this folly!

where is my destination

i still don't find out my destination.

i also cannot find myself.

i only think negative and am jealous of others.

i hate myself.

we're friends,but maybe i pretend...

i'm jealous of you.

you have all the things i don't have and cannot get.family,friends,bright future and love...

but you always complain about your situation.

i cannot understand your thought.

why complain?

you should be satisfied with it.

you want too much.

my favorite lyric

i got Andreas Mattson's album yesterday.
Andreas is ex-popsicle.
This album is released from Hybris,Sweden.Hybris is my favorite label.

i read his lyrics on the way to home(in the train),almost dropped tears.

his lyric is simple,has quiet mood and especially i can have sympathy with it.

my favorite phrase is below:

you're waiting for someone
but someone doesn't show
you light a cigarette
you think she should hace let you know

you don't recognize a soul
you sip you beer and watch the wall
but then the curtains rise
and suddenly you find you fall

you're never lonely when the band plays
when the first note hits your spine
and you're washed over b y the sound waves
you're not alone when you're alive

(from "you're never lonely when the band plays")

i'm really moved by this lyric.
such awesome feeling i felt is for the first time in my life.yes,it's not exaggerated.just my real feeling.

great.

i cannot find the better words for Andreas.

again

wow!!

i passed the test!!!

i was very nervous at that time,so i didn't remember what i said:)
and,the instructer didn't smile at all,i reckoned he was uncomfortable and got angry little.but after the test i asked a reception if he got angry,she said he didn't got angry,on the contrary,praised me!

huh...anyway,i can go up upper class.
my speaking skill is still poor,i must study hard more and more.
i'll do my best!!